Today was my last day working at Remember This. I am officially unemployed. Tomorrow I wake up and will need to regroup - to find my way. I'm not sure I have ever been unemployed - not even in high school or college. Although, there was the summer when I met Brad when I was briefly without a job, but not for a very long time. It's kind of an unsettling, empty feeling. I walk in my craft room and just feel overwhelmed and don't know what to do - where to even start - with so much to do.
But..I cannot stay in that place. I cannot think about that. I need to move forward. I have faith that God will help bring me through this. For the first time in many, many years I have the opportunity to do what I want - what is my hearts desire. I want to create, to get lost, to do what my mind takes me to in my dreams. I just hope that I can achieve what I seem to get accomplished while asleep. :) I want to be more involved with my church, and I want to spend more time with my children and I want to clean up and remodel my house.
So... Tomorrow I will load up the truck and take some things to Green Expressions where I have rented a space to sell some things. Things from my house, things that I have made and some more things from my house. And tomorrow I am going to sit down and just make something...something that I have been wanting to make. I'm going to crank up the music and sing and maybe even dance a little. It's a start. It's the first day of the rest of my life and I'm going to make the best of it.
As I tell my children - just keep putting one foot in front of another. Wake up, dress up, show up and never, ever give up!